WINTER TIME

Winter time can be so beautiful. This is a picture of some freezing fog that was on a blade of grass.

HAITI

So many sad and dark images
That continue to make me cry
A country so devastated
You keep asking why

A country in ruins
Families torn apart
Kids that have become orphans
It really breaks my heart

All the innocent people
Who had their last dance
All the precious children
Who didn’t even have a chance

Videos of a child’s doll
So ragged and torn
Being pulled out of the rubble
As the tears fall I continue to mourn

Feeling so helpless
My heart continues to break
Wishing there was something I could do
To help during this awful quake

REALITY

Why does it seem like I’m always living in a fantasy world?
Everything seems so unreal to me….people, places, events that
I see on tv or computer....all seem like they are not real. I feel like I
have no sense of what reality is. Why is that?

NEW YEAR

As 2009 was coming to an end I had told myself that a lot of changes
HAVE to be made in my life in the new year if I‘m going to survive and continue to have hope in life, but I just didn’t know “how to change“. I didn’t have the guidance from others in my life growing up, so I don’t know how to guide myself. I can keep telling myself that there is hope, keep fighting or that I still believe, but when things go bad or days when I get depressed, it’s so hard for me to get out of it and find the positive in things, therefore I can stay in a depressed state for days maybe weeks.

Well, as the new year rolled in I just happened to be in one of those depressed states already. My emotions were all over the place the couple of weeks leading up to Christmas. Then Christmas day I ended up spending it home alone because of a blizzard that closed all roads and a family member who I couldn’t even wish a Merry Christmas because she had to remain at work due to the weather. I know what feeling lonely feels like, but I have never felt more alone than I did on Christmas Day. Then I felt like the one dream that I have in life right now seemed to be slowly fading away and looking more like a fantasy than a dream.

Well, it’s taken a few weeks, but I had to step back and refocus on how badly I want to continue to fight, remain hopeful and continue to believe in life. My resolution this year is to not give up and to remain positive. I will continue to fight...for I will not let it defeat me. I will think positive, and positive things will come…there have already been a few signs.

“Change is hard. You fight to hold on. You fight to let go. But in the end, we all know, change is needed for you to grow”

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Here's wishing everyone
a happy, healthy and
joyous 2010.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

MERRY CHRISTMAS

There's a certain kind of magic
that happens this time of year
time to get together and celebrate
with those so close and dear

Life's biggest moments and treasures
are found in the one's we love
the many blessings and miracles
that came from the man above

The real meaning of Christmas
is not what's under the tree
but the love that comes from the heart
the caring and sharing all comes free

Please remember those less fortunate
as we celebrate this joyous time of year
And remember our troops over yonder
as they are kept from loved ones so dear

To all the families around the world
I'm wishing you all happiness and good cheer
Enjoy your special time with those you love
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

LOST IN EMOTION

Many times I try to write
And understand the way that I feel
But there’s always something around me
That just seems so unreal

My mind always feels lost
Like I’m constantly in a fog
Struggling to find words to say
Even to write in my own blog

Feeling like I’m drowning
In a sea of emotions
Almost as if I’m going under
In the middle of the ocean

Feeling so overwhelmed
I’m constantly in a daze
I feel so lost in life
I can’t seem to get out of this maze